"Being the best at whatever talent you have, that's what stimulates life" // 90:365

Days like this, i tend to ask myself what am i good at. Is there anything I'm good at doing? Everyone around me has a talent, or at least something they excel or are doing good at it, but what's mine? What's my talent? Dancing? Netball? Singing? Nah, i wish. I love doing them, unfortunately, I'm bad at them.

A part of me wished i did not listen to my dad's opinion of trying something new hence i stopped dancing for netball, yet a part of me am glad that i tried something new and took up netball. But sadly, i had to give up netball due to complications which i regretted doing so, and wished i persevered instead.

"Everyone has something they're good at, it just takes time to figure out what it is" 

20 years old, and yet to find an answer.

Some of my friends are good at dancing, some are good at singing, some are good at both, some play sports really well, some are genius at studying, some are even good at drinking (alcohol // at least they are still good at it and don't get high or drunk), some are good at sleeping or even eating. And here i am, thinking what I'm really good at, and not something I'm temporary good at (like sleeping or eating because it depends). Well, running used to be something I'm good at, but not anymore.

There comes a point whereby hard work and efforts will beat talent. Talent is something one owns but if they don't use it well, it's pointless. But i know, i do not have the effort or the determination to try so hard to excel in something, when i can't.

I just wish i have a talent or i know what I'm good at so that i can focus on it and make good use of it, instead of constantly finding around and figuring out what they are.