#believe ♡

2014 is definitely a different year for most of us. Lots and lots of things changed, happened. People come and leave, that's normal. The number of people leaving is higher than the number of people coming in, this means slowly you'll find yourself all alone. A group of 6 becomes 5, 4, 3 and nth at all. Its amazing how things turned out. Relationship over friendship or friendship over relationship? Its sad that everyone chose relationship that led to where we are right now. Regrets are kinda too late and pointless now. Even if we try to go back to how things were, I'm sure it'll never be the same. Its even sadder to know that your friends, not to mention bestfriends, chose relationship over friendship when you put them over relationships. But what I'm proud of is, we finally face this problem & talk about it after months. The more I think, the more I'm afraid. The clique's gone, people's gone, and if there's a day where I actually push away the ...

has anyone hoped for something to happen knowing it's impossible but when it really happened, you just feel so lost? has anyone tried to do everything he/she can to not think of something but at the end of the day, its still stays in your mind? has anyone tried so hard to resist their tears from flowing and actually smile & say you're okay? isolation level: 8%

웃어봐 슬퍼하지만 말고 괜찮아 눈물 흘리지 말고 지금 부르는 내 노래가 작은 위로가 되길 바래 웃어봐 아파하지만 말고 괜찮아 세상이 널 힘들게 해도 이 시간이 다 지나가면 모두 다 널 이해할거야 웃어봐 네 곁에 있잖아 사랑해 내 맘이 들리니 누가 뭐래도 널 믿고 있는 내가 함께 있잖아 웃어봐 내 눈을 바라봐 사랑해 널 사랑한(?) 맘은 변하지 않아 내 어깨 기대 잠시만 쉬면 돼 웃어봐 널 믿고 있는 내가 있잖아 Give me a smile, Don’t be sad It’s going to be alright. Don’t shed a tear The song that I am singing now I hope that it can bring you a bit of comfort Give me a smile, Don’t get hurt It’s going to be alright, although you are going through a hard time now Time will pass Everything will look up again Give me a smile I am right here by your side I love you, can you hear my heart? Close your eyes No matter what, I believe you I am always here for you Give me a smile, look into my eyes I love you, I have always been looking at your heart It has never changed You can lean on my shoulders Take a rest, Give me a smile. I am here for you, me who believes in you always and forever.

I actually thought things would get better as time pass, but who am I kidding right? I'd probably feel million times or even billion times better if I was told earlier. I tried my best not to be annoying so that people won't leave but I guess my best wasn't even enough. I'm sorry. isolation level: 6% ((It was 10% this afternoon until oliver, William and Allen cheered me up. Thanks guys)) shower cries are probably the best for a bad day like this

time check: 0023 isn't it ironic when you want to be closer to people yet isolate yourself? isolation level: 7%

its kinda sad to know you're someone people would easily lose interest in. so many better people out there, there's no way we can ever stop comparing. sometimes what a girl could ever ask for is just some assurance, being assured they are good enough, everything about her is just interesting, there's no way someone would lose interest of her. because most of the time, our best isn't good enough. got to admit, sweet talking does work on girls but definitely not all the time. girls fall for words they like to hear from people, especially if those honey-coated words comes from someone special. don't let a girl fall if you don't even intend to catch her. some nights, usually most nights, girls tend to overthink and point out all their flaws. I'm sure it'd really help a million if someone would actually say "you are perfect the  way you are" or "I like the way you are" "you are more than enough" (idk) though we might deny and...

yknow sometimes being alone feels really good. you get to reflect on what you've done, what had happen, everything. im always having the urge of isolating myself, but I hate the feeling of loneliness. & I guess isolation works best for me? #1: stop expecting. the higher the expectations, the higher the disappointments. #2: don't talk to others unless it is necessary. well, if they want to talk to you, they will, right? #3: don't start something you don't want to end. When there's a start, there's bound to be an end. #4: conceal, don't feel, don't let them know. & don't think. as long as I don't think, nothing bad will happen, I guess. isolation level: 5%