#believe ♡

As usual, came across a post on thoughtcatalog. recently, my posts contain several thoughtcatalog articles, just to let you guys know, i tend to visit thoughtcatalog.com daily, usually i chance upon it on twitter everyday. today, i read up on this post called On Extraordinary Love , as stated on my title. I thought of my past relationships. I had 2 relationships, first one was on 2012 and the second one was recently last year, 2015. I hate to admit it, but i honestly regretted my second relationship. Though it indeed have happy moments but it was a wrong feeling. it was more of being grateful than love. I have been dating someone since 2014, on and off, up till now. after my first break up, i felt so betrayed (not going to say why), i felt that everything wasn't real, "did he really love me?" however, i still had faith that he'll come back. a year passed, two years and towards the third year, things were getting better, “Why wasn’t love enough?” “Because love ...

chanced upon a post on thoughtcatalog, 20 signs your partner isn't as serious about your relationship as you are. no indirects or anything, just thought this section of the post is so relatable.  They’re “too busy” to text you. There are 24 hours in a day and each of those hours holds 60 minutes. Every single one of those minutes has 60 full seconds in them. Now, write a text. How long did it take? be it your boyfriend, your friends, bestfriend or whoever you're talking to, is it so hard to say "talk to you later" or at least inform you and let you know you're doing something so your expectations isn't that high. but afterall, what's our rights? i believe we all tend to ignore texts and not reply too. what goes around, comes around Also, chanced upon this "In a relationship your supposed to do things to make each other happy because it makes you happy to see me happy not because you have to" tiring week, one after another. ...

This post was meant to be yesterday's but I fell asleep hence didn't manage to publish it. 1st Jan 2016 Today marks the start of a brand new year, 2016. It's amazing how 2015 passed so quickly, it was like as though it only been a few months since I've started poly. New Year's Eve and New Year was not as bad as I expected, I mean it was good but it could have been better if he's here. Who wouldn't want to spent countdown with the one you love right? Haha sadly, my love is away and enjoying himself in KL. Had my first cry of the year, unfortunately. Thinking back about things that once happened to me, I felt that I've been through so much and it still scares me how it's only been a quarter of my life, I've still got a long way to go. Flashback to the period when fang and I first started hanging out. I was at my lowest point in life. I was accused of things I didn't do, people thought of others' feelings instead of mine, people put t...