#believe ♡

i need to stop. but the fear of losing you is real. I can't seem to stop thinking.it's sad how our conversation shrunk as days passed. just weeks back, when our conversation became lesser, you'd say how sad it is because we talked so little that day, but now it's just a normal thing. I remember the first time i lost you, it was like this too. Our conversation grew lesser and lesser, and one day it just stopped. so tell me how, how do i stop overthinking. it's hard, but i'll try, even if it kills inside.

i chance upon this post on ThoughtCatalogue, "How Everyone Wants To Be Loved", and my favourite part of the post would be this: " Of course, they always leave us anyway. In some ways, you know that it’s a countdown until they leave from the very beginning. They might say “I love you,” and the more easily pleased part of you will believe them, but there’s always a minor emptiness that you convince yourself to ignore. And when they leave, the pain is always magnified by the absence of surprise." i know i'm insecure as fk, i'm pretty sure most of the girls out there are as well. I need assurance every single time, despite the number of "i love you" have been said. the feeling of losing someone you don't ever want to lose, sucks so badly, not to mention if you once lost him/her before. putting such thoughts aside, it's 3am in the morning, and i've got Macroeconomics MSA tmr. Trying so hard to concentrate and study but meh, i just w...

you know you love someone when your face lit up whenever his/her name gets mentioned you know you love someone when what he/she do matters despite its minority you know you love someone when you are willing to travel so far just to have a look at his/her face you know you love someone when his/her mood affects yours drastically  you know you love someone when you don't mind him/her despite knowing how bad he/she can be you know you love someone when you enjoy every moment with him/her even if you guys are just sitting down doing your own respective things you know you love someone when you crave for his/her presence every single minute, hour and day you know you love someone when you think of memories of him/her out of the blue you know you love someone when you constantly wait for his/her name to appear on your phone you know you love someone when you get disappointed if the text/call isn't from him/her, but smiles like an idiot if the tex...

i'm finally back on this space of mine!! i realized it's been such a long time since i've updated my blog so yeap, i conquered my laziness and decided to update it (finally?!). this post is supposed to be up on 26 but i'm andro, i'm forever late, what's new as many of us know, my legal birthday have passed, and thanks to my bunch of friends, i managed to celebrated it perfectly. 2 days before my birthday, 17th of nov (happy birthday alysia), joanne, jolene and her clique surprised me at their house with the "never-ending" candle and a cake they bought. it wasn't a big celebration but i was really grateful and glad as they came all the way down just to surprise me. on my actual birthday, jionghao & jordan aka bear & panda, treated me loklook(!!!) and they themselve ate it together with me (for the 1st time??) silly jordan, he can't take the spiciness so yeap, he ended up tearing after eating a few mouths HAHAHA. kaipin and hazel bo...