note to self: D on't let the hurt someone else caused be the reason why you reject the love someone wants to give you. Never make someone pay for a mistake they didn't make.
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13:365 // "sometimes doing your best is not enough"
the fear i had while opening my results, bet those students who was hoping you'll get what you wished for though you know it's impossible, felt the same way as i did. though there are others who did worse than me, but i'm pretty sure they have something in mind that they enjoy doing, knowing what they are going to pursue. there are also others who are good in things, for example, sports, dance, music. even if they didn't do well, i'm sure they'll end up in some course that they really like/enjoy, or a course that interest them. it's kind of sad not knowing what your goals are, not knowing what you enjoy doing, not knowing what you really like. it's even sad to know that you ain't good in anything, not even sports. "it hurts knowing you tried your best and it still wasn't good enough" but nevertheless, congrats to all my friends who scored really well!!! :-) and i would like to thank those people who were with me ytd, incl...
11:365 // "time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time"
Being appreciative is something I've learnt after so many years. Cherishing someone only after they're gone was the price of the lesson. I really really want to thank God for putting such amazing people around me. People that I feel blessed, just by thinking of them. Though He took people that I once loved/means alot to me away, but that probably means I deserve much better. First of all, I'm really really blessed to have the fab (hans & fang) being part of my life. I really love how I can be myself around them, and how we only showed a side of us among ourselves (others don't even know how crazy we are when it's just the 3 of us) It's weird how I feel so happy around them, even if it was just eating a plate of noodles. All I'm wishing for is, us not separating after we enter our own different school Second, the girls (hidayu, okta, lynn, lyl and gwen). Though we drifted, and ain't that close anymore, but i'm still glad they entered my life. E...
10:365 // With Love - Christina Grimmie
You called me out and taught me tough With love, with love. You fought my flaws, my teeth, my claws With love, with love. Cause every time I'm slipping away from myself, You're the one that moves me like nobody else. Cause when I'm down and I'm done, And I'm coming unplugged When I'm ready to fall You're the one always holding me up With love Oh no no Your tongue won't tie, you'll always find The truth yeah you do But still you smile despite the lines I drew for you Cause every time I'm slipping away from myself, You're the one that moves me like nobody else. Oh no. Cause when I'm down and I'm done, And I'm coming unplugged When I'm ready to fall You're the one always holding me up With love Love, Love, Love, Love When I'm down, when I'm coming unplugged. no. (Ohh) You're always there with love (Love) When I'm done, love When I'm out, when I fall You're always always always always there When I'm...
3:365 // "what's life without happiness"
woke up at about 915 and tried forcing myself to sleep but i just can't. i've got no idea why but there's this heavy feeling inside me, not allowing me to get back to sleep. before that, i had a nightmare of sth really scary, scary as in if my life is going to be what i dreamt of, i'd rather die. watched friends with benefit to kill some time and now i'm here in this space of mine, while listening to Christina Grimmie's With Love album. thought really really carefully about what would i do if i die tomorrow, no joke. this post is going to be really emo and shitty so those of you reading this can stop if you want to. if i were to die tomorrow, i'd probably tell my family (dad and grandad) how much i really love them. I've never ever had a chance to tell my dad how much he meant to me, never ever had a proper conversation with both of them. To be honest, i can never imagine what my life would be without them. if i have a chance, probably cook a meal for...
2:365 // "brand new year, brand new life"
happy 2015 guys!! (though i know i'm a day late, as usual) 2014 has been really shitty at the same time it was a great year, definitely better than 2013. Super thankful for people who have stayed with me throughout the entire year of 2014, despite my annoyance and me being so irritating. special thanks to: the f ab (hans & fang) - ♡ ♡ ♡ so much love for them x fang's family the girls (yl, hide, okta, lynn & gwen) minjie ramiya & jie janie michael, xh, kama, isabel, irfan and the dog (weiwei) - my life would be SUPER boring without the sec4s sharon - someone i'm thankful for x bbg "fan" club (delsher, lester, nigelius, etc) yanling's family xueqi (childhood friend/sister) without them, my 2014 wouldn't be as good as it seems. Some of them even stayed by me at my worst and for that, i'm really grateful and appreciate them!! i can't even believe i'm going to be 18 this year and i'm sure ALL o...