#believe ♡

9 sept. Friday Went to hike at Macritchie Reservoir with Ms Tay and it was really such a good experience. I've always wanted to go to the treetop walk with my friends but most of them are either lazy. not the kind that hikes or they've already done that with their boyfriends. met Ms Tay @ 9am start our walk @ 930am, ended at 1230pm walked to Thomson Plaza and ate our brunch Reached home at about 3pm super productive morning and it's been months, probably a year(?) since i had one. 15 sept. Thursday Finally met Alicia after 2 months. and our first outing together was rlly great. We did our nails at Far East Plaza and chatted for about 1.5hours at the shop itself. It was her first experience doing her nails in a shop hence it was interesting to know how she felt etc. oh and I FINALLY HAD MY HOKKAIDO ICECREAM that i've been craving for, for weeks!!! It was also Alicia's first try and i'm glad she liked it!! Brought her to Lucky Plaza as she hav...

At the start of 2016, i blogged about a brand new year, talking about how i still remember everything that once happened to me 2 years ago. "Had my first cry of the year, unfortunately. Thinking back about things that once happened to me, I felt that I've been through so much and it still scares me how it's only been a quarter of my life, I've still got a long way to go. Flashback to the period when fang and I first started hanging out. I was at my lowest point in life. I was accused of things I didn't do, people thought of others' feelings instead of mine, people put themselves in others' shoes but not mine. All in all, yet I can't stand up for myself, I tried but no one seems to be listening. The feeling I had was torturous and up till now, I have never forget how it felt. I thought since it's over, I'll forget about every singe thing, but today, I realised I can still feel/remember everything vividly." Never did i expect to experienc...

"have you ever been attracted to something genuine and realistic?" it's not about the looks, not about the height, not about the criteria that person has. have you ever been attracted to someone's character & personality? it doesn't matter if you guys are just friends, good friends or whatsoever. Being attracted to someone doesn't mean you like them, however, if you happen to, that's a joyous thing though it can saddening too as you wish he/she feels the same.

是不是 还那么爱迟到 熬夜工作 又睡不好 等你 完成你的目标 要戒掉逞强的嗜好 都怪我 把自尊放太高 没有把你照顾好 骄傲 是脆弱的外表 最怕我的心 你不要 能不能继续 对我哭 对我笑 对我好 继续让我 为你想 为你疯 陪你老 你好不好 好想知道 别急着把回忆都丢掉 我只需要你在身边 陪我吵 陪我闹 用好的我 把过去坏的我 都换掉 好想听到 你坚决说爱我 可惜回不去那一秒 你，好不好? 天知道 我快要受不了 后悔 钻进心里烧 拥抱 再多一次就好 你要的 我都做得到 能不能继续 对我哭 对我笑 对我好 继续让我 为你想 为你疯 陪你老 给你的好 还要不要 答案我却不敢揭晓 我只需要你在身边 陪我吵 陪我闹 别用离开教我 失去的人最重要 别说 你曾经爱过我 让我们回到那一秒 你，好不好? 能不能继续 对我哭 对我笑 对我好 继续让我 为你想 为你疯 陪你老 你好不好 我好想知道 别急着把我的爱丢掉 我只需要你在身边 陪我吵 陪我闹 别用离开教我 失去的人最重要 别说 你曾经爱过我 让我们回到那一秒 你，好不好? when i first listened to this song when it was released, i teared up, without any reason. some moments won't happen twice, and there's no way that time can rewind, no matter how much you want it to. "Appreciate life as it happens. Moments will soon pass and you will wished you had treasured them more."

It's been really really long. so here's a quick update!! year 2 is so far good, great friends great grades (as of now) went to zouk twice alrdy (finally??) and i'm heading again next week with my bestfriend!!! holidays was just about work work and more work going to perth on the september with school!! (egg-cited?!?) 2 places off my wishlist, yay!!! oh and, ended everything with xh, after 3 years, on and off things were better for me i guess, and hopefully for him too. I started trying out new things, meeting new people, seen things i've never seen, experiencing things i wouldn't expect to experience, going to places i've never been etc. Things have been really different, and it hit me a little, "how much i have missed, and i'm going to enter the adulthood really really soon" despite you being my favourite page even after reading the pages after, it's pointless to read it over and over again, without understanding it. tried rea...

As usual, came across a post on thoughtcatalog. recently, my posts contain several thoughtcatalog articles, just to let you guys know, i tend to visit thoughtcatalog.com daily, usually i chance upon it on twitter everyday. today, i read up on this post called On Extraordinary Love , as stated on my title. I thought of my past relationships. I had 2 relationships, first one was on 2012 and the second one was recently last year, 2015. I hate to admit it, but i honestly regretted my second relationship. Though it indeed have happy moments but it was a wrong feeling. it was more of being grateful than love. I have been dating someone since 2014, on and off, up till now. after my first break up, i felt so betrayed (not going to say why), i felt that everything wasn't real, "did he really love me?" however, i still had faith that he'll come back. a year passed, two years and towards the third year, things were getting better, “Why wasn’t love enough?” “Because love ...

chanced upon a post on thoughtcatalog, 20 signs your partner isn't as serious about your relationship as you are. no indirects or anything, just thought this section of the post is so relatable.  They’re “too busy” to text you. There are 24 hours in a day and each of those hours holds 60 minutes. Every single one of those minutes has 60 full seconds in them. Now, write a text. How long did it take? be it your boyfriend, your friends, bestfriend or whoever you're talking to, is it so hard to say "talk to you later" or at least inform you and let you know you're doing something so your expectations isn't that high. but afterall, what's our rights? i believe we all tend to ignore texts and not reply too. what goes around, comes around Also, chanced upon this "In a relationship your supposed to do things to make each other happy because it makes you happy to see me happy not because you have to" tiring week, one after another. ...

This post was meant to be yesterday's but I fell asleep hence didn't manage to publish it. 1st Jan 2016 Today marks the start of a brand new year, 2016. It's amazing how 2015 passed so quickly, it was like as though it only been a few months since I've started poly. New Year's Eve and New Year was not as bad as I expected, I mean it was good but it could have been better if he's here. Who wouldn't want to spent countdown with the one you love right? Haha sadly, my love is away and enjoying himself in KL. Had my first cry of the year, unfortunately. Thinking back about things that once happened to me, I felt that I've been through so much and it still scares me how it's only been a quarter of my life, I've still got a long way to go. Flashback to the period when fang and I first started hanging out. I was at my lowest point in life. I was accused of things I didn't do, people thought of others' feelings instead of mine, people put t...