It's really really saddening to know and realised your everyday routine is changing as time passes. It's even sadder to know the friendship that you treasure alot alot alot, isn't as strong as you thought it is. It hurts even more knowing how much better others will be, without me. It's hard at the same time, to hold back tears.
I know I'm a burden to others but I never knew my existence was too. Now as I start to think back, I feel really guilty yet sorry to those people's life I entered.  어떻게?

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