13:365 // "sometimes doing your best is not enough"

the fear i had while opening my results, bet those students who was hoping you'll get what you wished for though you know it's impossible, felt the same way as i did. though there are others who did worse than me, but i'm pretty sure they have something in mind that they enjoy doing, knowing what they are going to pursue. there are also others who are good in things, for example, sports, dance, music. even if they didn't do well, i'm sure they'll end up in some course that they really like/enjoy, or a course that interest them.

it's kind of sad not knowing what your goals are, not knowing what you enjoy doing, not knowing what you really like. it's even sad to know that you ain't good in anything, not even sports. 

"it hurts knowing you tried your best and it still wasn't good enough"

but nevertheless, congrats to all my friends who scored really well!!! :-)

and i would like to thank those people who were with me ytd, including the security guards. the security guards were so cute, they were like "andromeda, i've seen you since sec1 and now you're sec5, how's ur results" hahhahaha a big thank you to fang and brandon who were very worried about my results the entire afternoon, and of course xh, irfan, jeremy, isabel and jiahau who came (though not for me but still, they assured me i'd be able to get into poly & my grades are good enough)

initially i was very nervous ((that i crushed a booklet that they gave)) while mr wong and ms tan were talking, plus i was the first to collect it. i didn't dare to look at my results but whoever asked me for my results, i let them view my cert. some gave me a face that i knew i did badly but some assured me i'll be fine. waited till fang and brandon ended school, they took a look at it and was shocked, so i kind of expected something bad. not long after, weiwei came too, and he saw my results. that face he gave was totally a giveaway on what my results are and yeap all the sadness started kicking in. took a look at my results and i really really can't believe i did that badly. how did i even do that badly. was super depressed because of my humanities but overall, my important subjects passed, so i wasn't that sad anymore. i'm more of disappointed. how did i even study that i could get such bad grades. sigh the more i look at the courses, the more depressed and disappointed i get. but i guess i'll be fine and accept the fact in a few days. thankful for my dad last night. surprisingly, he didn't asked me to show him my results or anything. he just asked me how was it and i said "average, but i failed humanities" but i assured him i could go to poly so maybe that's why he didn't say much. but still thankful for him not adding salt to my wound (like what he usually do).

//for those who got slightly higher than me, don't worry alright, as long as you're eligible for poly courses, you'll still stand a chance!! don't give up x :-)//