Can love really conquers all? // 153:366

I believe many of you have watched Ryan and Sylvia's latest video and also their IG. For those who didn't, and don't know what's going on, they got a divorce recently. Just like me, a lot of you teared and cried while watching the video, about them explaining what was going on and what made them choose to get a divorce etc.

A marriage is really not easy, definitely. It is not as simple as a BGR, because marriage involves a whole new level of commitment, trust and love. Not only that, marriage comes with a new level of responsibility as well. It is not the same as cohabitation with your lover, or during the weekend stay overs you guys constantly have, it is not the same as watching your lover game during their free time, it is not the same dining with each other & the list goes on.

I really agree with what both Ryan and Sylvia said in their video,

"A marriage takes a lot of commitment and a lot of effort from both parties. And the day that you prioritize something over it, you're going downhill. From there, it's going downhill."

I can relate to this so so so much, when I heard them saying these words, it hurts me, and I felt so sad.

Xianghong and I are not a perfect couple, in fact, honestly, I ALWAYS feel that we are two different types of people, so so different that I often feel that we are super incompatible for each other. Every now & then, I did think of getting a divorce for the better us, for a better future, because I always ask myself,

"Does love really conquers everything?"

As much as he makes me the happiest person ever, he is also the one who makes me the saddest & the angriest, ironically. Despite our differences, we love each other so much.

"But how long can this love last?"

Many of you will think I'm stupid or silly for even thinking of getting a divorce because we have Xania, but to me, I feel that even if we do get a divorce, we will always be Xania's parents. We may not be lovers anymore, but one fact doesn't change - Xania is OUR daughter. 

Marriage is never a game, I marry XH because I love him and I've always wanted to marry him, even without Xania, I would marry him. But some things, just happen.

Some of ya'll may think I’m writing this for “fun” & I may be lying etc, but I do have a note written about this (to xh) in my phone, which I wrote when I was thinking about it SO MUCH, that it eats me up and the only way for me to feel better, was to write it out.

Of course every time I think about this matter, I will brush it off because I know I still love XH romantically, and up till now, I still feel happy with him. Perhaps one day when love is no longer present, when I don't love him romantically, then it might happen. But who knows, it might be 2 years later, 5 years, 10 years or never at all? We'll never know, I'll never know if love can conquers all until something happens.

Here's to all the current & future married couples, divorced couples, and everyone who might face similar situations out there. Stay emotionally and physically strong, everything happens for a reason.

Quoting one of my favourite quote, which is also on my blog's header;

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." - Marilyn Monroe

xx,

Andro