“It's your choices, not the chances - that determines your destiny." // 89:365

It's been 6 months since i've written a post here. I realised i did not really update this space of mine regularly last year, i guess it's time i should? Got myself a new theme/face for my blog after YEARS, which kind of motivates me to update this blog often now. I've been wanting to post for quite some time about my thoughts, but i was rlly lazy (what's new..)

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How do people know what they want so easily, and make choices confidently, without the fear of it being the wrong decision and regrets them? How do people not fear about the things around them and move forward? I fear a lot of things, to the extent that i do not know if i should just continue getting myself stuck at the same place, or take a step forward and give myself a chance. 

There are so many "what ifs" happening all around us, all around me. Yet, how do people even brave themselves and go for what they want, making choices and taking the chance, creating their destiny? If you decide to move forward, and it comes to a point whereby you know that it's the wrong choice, do you take a step back again or continue moving forward? Do taking a step back helps? Are we able to take a step back, or is it too late? What if staying at where i am is the one for me, is the place that i am meant to be? Will moving forward allow me to face a better place that suits me? 

Should i take the chance, or should i say should i give myself a chance to take this risk and who knows, i might encounter a beautiful place that is meant for me instead?

Everyone around me knows how bad i am at making decisions, how i can never ever make a decision unless i'm really sure of myself. Regrets. That is probably the one and only thing i fear so much. Regrets are probably the main cause of stopping me from taking chances and choosing. For example, rejections, everyone fears rejections. If none of us choose not to initiate things, we wouldn't face rejections. That links back to regrets, regretting the choice we made to initiate something.

There's so many things that leads to regret. Failure, lost, dissatisfaction and many more... Ironically, if i don't take a chance to do something i really want despite knowing i will face rejections or failure, i will regret them as well. It's the chances that i didn't take hence, i regret. I will regret not doing my best or trying my best to achieve what i want, i will regret not taking the chances when i have the chance to, i will regret fearing regrets.

Perhaps, this is just me, or humans. People are complicated the way we are, and because of this, i envy people who doesn't fear anything, and are simple the way they are.