2:366 // "brand new year, brand new start. Welcome 2016"
This post was meant to be yesterday's but I fell asleep hence didn't manage to publish it.
Had my first cry of the year, unfortunately. Thinking back about things that once happened to me, I felt that I've been through so much and it still scares me how it's only been a quarter of my life, I've still got a long way to go. Flashback to the period when fang and I first started hanging out. I was at my lowest point in life. I was accused of things I didn't do, people thought of others' feelings instead of mine, people put themselves in others' shoes but not mine. All in all, yet I can't stand up for myself, I tried but no one seems to be listening. The feeling I had was torturous and up till now, I have never forget how it felt. I thought since it's over, I'll forget about every singe thing, but today, I realised I can still feel/remember everything vividly.
2015 has been good in a way because I'm thankful to have met people that is so important to me right now. 2015 is also the year that the person I once lost came back.
Thankful to have met Joanne who changed my entire poly life, I've never ever met someone who's so alike, in terms of our personalities, characteristics, liking the same Korean boy band, our thinkings/mindset, everything. I rlly hope year 2 in poly would be better for us as our Y1S2 wasn't good due to our class schedules etc.
Thankful & grateful for lafamilia, Fang & family, my dad, xueqi, my secondary school mates and of course my poly friends such as Jordan, Sarah & Gabbie!!
Meeting up with my primary school mates tmr!! To be honest, I missed all the outings we've plans due to me being busy/not free whoops. Was supposed to miss tmr's outing as well but axel sort of pleaded me to go because he's enlisting on tues and yes I had to. Can't wait though :-))
Today, fang's bro managed to come home for about a few hours after so many things that happened. He was supposed to be home for dinner together with us and his friends but shit happened he couldn't get down the ship. However after our dinner without him, he managed to find some ways and with the help of his mate, he came home. We didn't managed to have dinner together but at least we get to see him and listened to his sail stories all the way. It's sad to know how much he has suffered just by being on board for about 1.5-2months only and there's still 10 more months to go.
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how i spent my last day of 2015:
> fang's house
> town
> tim ho wan with fang's family
> a ride home to deliver tim ho wan food to my dad
> fang's house
> town to meet michael, weiwei, kerri, hanquan, nicholas, jaeik, ernest & rachel
> cueroom till 130am
> fang's house with weiwei
goodbye 2015
1st Jan 2016
Today marks the start of a brand new year, 2016. It's amazing how 2015 passed so quickly, it was like as though it only been a few months since I've started poly. New Year's Eve and New Year was not as bad as I expected, I mean it was good but it could have been better if he's here. Who wouldn't want to spent countdown with the one you love right? Haha sadly, my love is away and enjoying himself in KL.
Had my first cry of the year, unfortunately. Thinking back about things that once happened to me, I felt that I've been through so much and it still scares me how it's only been a quarter of my life, I've still got a long way to go. Flashback to the period when fang and I first started hanging out. I was at my lowest point in life. I was accused of things I didn't do, people thought of others' feelings instead of mine, people put themselves in others' shoes but not mine. All in all, yet I can't stand up for myself, I tried but no one seems to be listening. The feeling I had was torturous and up till now, I have never forget how it felt. I thought since it's over, I'll forget about every singe thing, but today, I realised I can still feel/remember everything vividly.
2015 has been good in a way because I'm thankful to have met people that is so important to me right now. 2015 is also the year that the person I once lost came back.
Thankful to have met Joanne who changed my entire poly life, I've never ever met someone who's so alike, in terms of our personalities, characteristics, liking the same Korean boy band, our thinkings/mindset, everything. I rlly hope year 2 in poly would be better for us as our Y1S2 wasn't good due to our class schedules etc.
Thankful & grateful for lafamilia, Fang & family, my dad, xueqi, my secondary school mates and of course my poly friends such as Jordan, Sarah & Gabbie!!
Meeting up with my primary school mates tmr!! To be honest, I missed all the outings we've plans due to me being busy/not free whoops. Was supposed to miss tmr's outing as well but axel sort of pleaded me to go because he's enlisting on tues and yes I had to. Can't wait though :-))
Today, fang's bro managed to come home for about a few hours after so many things that happened. He was supposed to be home for dinner together with us and his friends but shit happened he couldn't get down the ship. However after our dinner without him, he managed to find some ways and with the help of his mate, he came home. We didn't managed to have dinner together but at least we get to see him and listened to his sail stories all the way. It's sad to know how much he has suffered just by being on board for about 1.5-2months only and there's still 10 more months to go.
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how i spent my last day of 2015:
> fang's house
> town
> tim ho wan with fang's family
> a ride home to deliver tim ho wan food to my dad
> fang's house
> town to meet michael, weiwei, kerri, hanquan, nicholas, jaeik, ernest & rachel
> cueroom till 130am
> fang's house with weiwei
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It's time to let go of the past and continue moving forward. You can't start a new chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one. Close the book and start a new one.
"forgive & forget Andro, that's what you're good at"
goodbye 2015
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