344:365 // "Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it's everything in between that makes it all worth living."

i chance upon this post on ThoughtCatalogue, "How Everyone Wants To Be Loved", and my favourite part of the post would be this:

"Of course, they always leave us anyway. In some ways, you know that it’s a countdown until they leave from the very beginning. They might say “I love you,” and the more easily pleased part of you will believe them, but there’s always a minor emptiness that you convince yourself to ignore. And when they leave, the pain is always magnified by the absence of surprise."

i know i'm insecure as fk, i'm pretty sure most of the girls out there are as well. I need assurance every single time, despite the number of "i love you" have been said. the feeling of losing someone you don't ever want to lose, sucks so badly, not to mention if you once lost him/her before.

putting such thoughts aside, it's 3am in the morning, and i've got Macroeconomics MSA tmr. Trying so hard to concentrate and study but meh, i just want to sleep so badly. best of luck to everyone who's having their exams this period, and of course to me, too.