103:365 // "In order to be free, we must learn how to let go."

it's 12:45am now, and i'm back here. it hasn't been long since i last updated but yeah, so many things happened. wait, actually almost every month is very happening to me hahah

i just wish life wouldn't be so complicated. maybe life isn't that complicating but the process of going through life is. it's scary how scars refrain you from doing something. who would even want to face the same situation twice, thrice or maybe more than that right? pretty sure most of us faced things more than twice because we've never learn from our lessons. it makes you think twice before deciding to do something because you're scared that the same thing happened. but at the same time, if you're scared then how are things going to continue. i'm not sure how am i going to step out of this zone i'm in right now, stopping myself from turning the pages.

nothing really big happened within this month but mehh, i'm going to start poly soon, and i'm totally not ready for it. I went for SOH pre-fop camp on wednesday and thursday with Lynn, both of us were super awkward the first few hours of camp, but glad we managed to bond with the others quite a bit after lunch and even made friends with 3 other girls. day 2 was so much better as the girls and i went to school tgt and yeah, our entire group actually managed to communicate with each other slightly more, though there were so little people in the group compared to others. kind of looking forward to FOP next week but i'm not too.

oh and, last saturday (11th) was a slightly more different than a normal typical saturday. I actually decided to re-dedicate my life back to Jesus. I'm not sure if it's going to be the right choice but i shall have faith and see how it goes. but yeah, i honestly learned quite alot from that service i attended on sat. the words that i've heard are definitely something worth hearing and learning from it. however, i have yet to let my dad know about this decision that i've made and i'm not really sure how to even tell him about it. probably not too soon, i guess, idk.

finally i get to go to the beach after so many donkey weeks/months, and yeap satisfied sunday i guess.

timecheck: 2:10am

(p/s: i did not take 2 hours to write this post. i was doing other things also)











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beth aka maria!!!




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miss sarah


aunty maria 

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