55:365 // “每个人都拥有幸福的可能”
it's really funny how people like me pushes everyone who cares and love us away, and ending up regretting when they really leave. it's crazy how time flies, it's going to be the end of February in a blink of an eye. it's been long since i've updated this blog of mine, and at this point of time, this is the only space i can actually go to right now. it's kind of hard for me to describe what i'm feeling, hard for me to even put it into words, but whatever it is, the fact that i always screw things up and regret it, says it all. I destroy the things I love, it's so hard to even open up to anything.
I never knew it would actually hurt that much, it just felt like my heart and chest weighs over a thousand grams. Do you ever have the feeling of wanting to talk to someone yet not sure why is there something stopping you? and what's worse is that, I've got no idea why I'd feel like that and ended up screwing things.
moreover, with fears and insecurities adding up, the feeling is so horrible, like words can't even describe how bad it feels. There are so many people better, prettier, nicer, taller, hotter, skinnier, friendlier, gentler, more feminine, kinder and the list could go on and on, no reason why would someone even stay for me right.
"明明就她比较温柔, 也许她能给你更多"
stayed over at xueqi's house for the entire week, almost the entire of feb to be exact haha. It feels so much better than staying at my own house mehh. Chinese new year is really boring, the only good thing is all of us get to collect red packets and i'm sure that's what most of us love most about in cny haha
timecheck: 1:55am, slept at 7+am this morning and woke up at 440+pm today, still feeling so so so tired and sleepy. I'm so tired of feeling tired sigh
Pictures are not in order so ya, short update about my Feb :-))
I never knew it would actually hurt that much, it just felt like my heart and chest weighs over a thousand grams. Do you ever have the feeling of wanting to talk to someone yet not sure why is there something stopping you? and what's worse is that, I've got no idea why I'd feel like that and ended up screwing things.
moreover, with fears and insecurities adding up, the feeling is so horrible, like words can't even describe how bad it feels. There are so many people better, prettier, nicer, taller, hotter, skinnier, friendlier, gentler, more feminine, kinder and the list could go on and on, no reason why would someone even stay for me right.
"明明就她比较温柔, 也许她能给你更多"
stayed over at xueqi's house for the entire week, almost the entire of feb to be exact haha. It feels so much better than staying at my own house mehh. Chinese new year is really boring, the only good thing is all of us get to collect red packets and i'm sure that's what most of us love most about in cny haha
timecheck: 1:55am, slept at 7+am this morning and woke up at 440+pm today, still feeling so so so tired and sleepy. I'm so tired of feeling tired sigh
Pictures are not in order so ya, short update about my Feb :-))
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