"love when you're ready, and not when you're alone"

Alot of my friends have asked "why don't you get a bf" and I always replied "because I can't find the right one" they'll be "how can it be, there's so many guys out there!!!" well it's the fact that I can't :-(

There are times I really really envy each and every one of my girls, seeing them so happy with their bf, they get to go out on date with their hands interlocked, they have someone that loves them for who they are. Sometimes, when most of my girls came to me to rant about their bf, and their problems, I'd always think to myself "when is it my turn to rant to someone else about my r/s problems?" but of course, I'm definitely enjoying every moment of my single life because why not?

Some even asked me what is my ideal type of guys? Well, a good question because I don't have an ideal type. If I like you means I like you.

But at the same time, that person that I like, or vice versa (if it even happens) needs to be very very attentive, careful, considerate and GENTLEMAN. As I'm a very clumsy person, so my boyfriend has to be very careful/attentive of me. I'm also a very forgetful person, he must always remind me things that I need to rmb, forgive me for forgetting to bring things etc, but of course, there is no way I'll forget sth that is important to us (like our date and birthday etc) I'm super scared of cold, so my bf will need to bring an outerwear or a jacket all the time because I'm forgetful/clumsy. I'll forget to bring my own cardigan/outerwear/jacket. I get hungry easily, but I dislike eating alone, plus most of the time I wouldn't say I'm hungry as I'll find myself fat. If my bf is attentive enough, he would know or ask if I'm hungry etc. Plus he'd need to eat with me, at least sth small as I really dislike eating alone. I'm actually super vulnerable when it comes to relationship, so my bf definitely needs to be considerate about how I feel and be a gentleman because which girls doesn't like their boyfriend being a gentleman, that's like a plus point hehe. Additionally, sometimes i get too tired to even carry my bag, so it'd be super great to see my bf offering to help me carry my bag. Some of my guy friends complained to me that whenever they offered to help their gf carry their bag, their gf wouldn't allow because it's very gay of them to carry a lady's bag. But unlike them, to me, i think it's not even gay to carry a lady's bag, it's more of a man being a gentlemam. Isn't it? Even if it does look "gay" but hey, your bf puts you first before his "face". He's willing to be embarrassed for you, so why not just accpet his form of care/love/concern? I'm like a burden to most people around me so my future bf must be super patient with me. OH PLUS IM KNOWN AS THE LATE QUEEN, so he definitely needs to be patient while waiting for me!!!! I really really love it when guys pay attention to those little things we, girls, do. The feeling is like really lovely. However, I'm super super insecure, so my bf must be able to handle how insecure I feel, making me feel loved and of course the comfort feeling that girls need :')

It's really hard to find someone who can be super patient with me, someone that could cater to my needs as and when, someone who doesn't mind my clumsiness and someone who can constantly remind me about those things I'll forget.

But I'm pretty sure there's such person out there. I'll just have to wait :-)