"good things fall apart so that better things can fall together"

sometimes i really wonder how does one forget the memories made, especially memories made by someone really special, that left. it's kind of amazing yet cruel how memories allow one's feelings to be swayed. other than that, how does one know if he/she has let someone/something go completely?? i really really wonder.

it's been 2 years yet i'm not sure myself if you still matter to me. it's really really torturing to know that everything still haunts me like as if it just happened months back, yet you're living perfectly fine without me. 

it's funny how i can never have crushes for more than a month or two because at the end of the day, i start comparing those people i have a crush on, with you. and boom, that's it, back to square 1. 

what's worse is that whenever i listen to songs that you once dedicated to me, or songs that we called OUR songs, each and every memory of us came flying back to my mind instantly. though i know our r/s was a very very very short one, but neither did i know you meant that much to me. 

真后悔没告诉你, 你对我多重要

i know it's silly having this little mini hope that we could start everything over again.