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so many things hit me at one time. someone tell me how do I handle this

cherish // appreciate

Most people, including me, only know how to cherish someone after they're gone. And yes, it's too late to regret. People like us are not worth a second chance.
I'd never ever imagine, even the nicest rejection towards your guy bestfriend would hurt that bad, that bad... I'm sorry.
Not talking to ppl doesn't mean I've forgotten about them.I have never ever ever forget about the sec4s. My bad for not talking to any of you.

fault

so now I'm at fault for every single thing. I really wonder how. Why is everyone pinpointing my bad but not my good... Why is it when others leave, no one said a word but when I do, everyone starts shooting. Why am I at fault when my bestfriends chose boyfriends over me? Did I want it to happen? I might be at fault for leaving but why only me? I leave my old friends for new friends, if my old friend appreciated me, I wouldn't even leave right? Isn't it a cycle?
You don't appreciate people, therefore they leave.
People don't appreciate me, therefore I leave.
But why is it only my fault...

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it's been long since i've cried this much. it's been long since i poured everything out. cried the entire day & i still feel like crying. help.

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