#believe ♡

"Every time you forgive him, he'll love you a little more but you'll love him a little less. The day when he loves you the most, you won't have any feelings for him anymore." Saw this somewhere on social media. Do ya'll agree with this?

It's my very first post after 2 years, and honestly I'm not sure where should I start or how should I start. I think I'm going to just blog about the few unforgettable moments that happened in 2019 till date. At the same time, I will also be uploading more recent photos, so do take a look if you want to kpo my life & face ahahahah. I know most of ya'll are more interested in Baby Xania instead, I'll try to include more of her in :') 31 Jan 2019 Xianghong & I FINALLY got married on this day, after waiting for months. It honestly felt like a dream come true because, the very first time we dated, I wanted to marry him HAHAHA but things happened in between and got my heart broken so many times. BUT HEY, what's meant to be, will be right? I'm glad we eventually found each other again, and this time, I know he really meant his words.  So funny, we both teared up and ALMOST cried while saying our vows, and it was one of the most touching moment I had wi...

ucjjcghnnnvvn - xania

“People who self-injure usually do not want to die. When they self-harm, they are not trying to kill themselves—they are trying to cope with their problems and pain. In fact, self-injury may be a way of helping themselves go on living.” I seriously can’t agree more with this sentence. However there are times, I feel the other way instead. I feel like dying would be a better idea, an easier way to cope with everything. I used to think self-harming is stupid, and no one should resort to that no matter what but now, I understood why. The physical pain overcomes the emotional pain, and it reduces the emotional pain we feel. Anyone, around you can be smiling and be happy, but what happens when they’re alone at home on their bed, in the shower, or even on the streets. Thoughts that kills them emotionally begin, smile on their face turns, with tears rolling down their cheek.  I guess there wouldn’t be anyone being happy all the time. there are good times, bad times, and times ...

Sometimes, i can't help but to think, alot. I think about everything and anything i can think of, anytime, anywhere. Have you ever wanted to go back to a particular time or period, wishing that day or that time can repeat over and over again? I do, all the time. I miss how things are when it first started. How things were so simple yet contented, how little things meant so much, how much things we used to talked about and share with each other. Quality time used to be something so essential, like the late night walks & the honest talks. As time pass, conversation gets mundane, topics become lesser, communication decreases, things changes, we changes. Sooner or later, there's just nothing to converse about, awkward silences becomes something normal. A two-party thing becomes something more than two, and eventually, everything will change. Just wondering, why can't things be the same as how it used to be when everything first started, or perhaps before everything started?...

当你爱一个人， 你会无条件的愿意为他牺牲。 不管多么的无理，多么的辛苦或难，你都会尽力付出。 当你爱一个人， 他的一举一动都会影响你。 无论好的或坏的，都会被影响。 当他对你一时忽略，你都会伤心而难过，希望他能给你所有的时间，像当时一样。 当你们吵架，不管是很大的事情或者小的事情，你都会流眼泪，都会哭， 因为你怕。 怕拥有的一切会被吵闹而消失，怕你们想要的未来不会实现，怕他会离开你。 当你爱一个人，无论他对你讲多么难听的话，你都会留。 有时，你会生一点气，反驳他的话。有时，你会被伤，所以提醒了他不要说气话。有时，你会怕，怕到你想逃避。 当你爱一个人，你会想和他聊天，和他在一起，想多看他一面，多见面的时间。 当你爱一个人，不会觉得太多的彼此，不会觉得足够的对方。 反而，你会想更多，无论什么事。 当你爱一个人，你都会想着他，做任何事都会想。 你会多想，然后伤心难过。当你伤心难过，你会要他安慰你，无论我们多傻，安慰话会让我们好过一些。