#believe ♡

It's really really saddening to know and realised your everyday routine is changing as time passes. It's even sadder to know the friendship that you treasure alot alot alot, isn't as strong as you thought it is. It hurts even more knowing how much better others will be, without me. It's hard at the same time, to hold back tears. I know I'm a burden to others but I never knew my existence was too. Now as I start to think back, I feel really guilty yet sorry to those people's life I entered.  어떻게?

Soo I think I've blogged about "feeling lonely though there are people around you" that kind of topic before????  I guessed that's what you felt Sigh Why is it when one feels lonely or sad, I'm the cause of it? When I'm feeling like this, who'd take the blame? but it's okay, I understand There's so many things I wna say but held it back, telling myself "it's okay, it doesn't matter, as long as everyone's happy like this" I cared about others' happiness, who cared the same way as I did about mine? Whatever, what's all these feelings when there's O levels lol My feelings doesn't matter anyway. Can't believe I'm actually tearing up typing these lol but who the fuck even cares O levels in starting in 2 days, I've been trying to study since I was alone the past 2 days. Quite productive but pathetic HAHA. Can't wait for o's to be over yet I don't want o's to come!? The irony ri...

It's funny how i can always give advices to everyone & anyone, yet it's impossible to apply to myself. I'm sure all of us are like this. Try: If you don't try, you'll never know what's the outcome. You'll lose even without trying. That's so sad, don't you think so? I realised I have SO much to catch up with my studies. So much till i myself know it's impossible to do well for o's. I don't even know if i should start trying. Trying: If trying worsens things, I'd rather not try. Just because of me trying, things turned out the way I least wanted. "expect the unexpected" mmmhmmm Tried: Though there's a saying "you never lose till you quit/give up/stop trying" (something like that) but I'm sure there's always a time when one should stop after giving their all. Because sometimes our best isn't good enough. Right? "at least I tried" that's the best one can say after trying yet fai...